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Depression Related Forums => Depression Central => Topic started by: CharleysAngel' on April 08, 2012, 03:36:44 PM
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I'm starting this because I am not allowed to moan about my feelings and my symptoms at home, and the truth is I need to moan about and I need to tell people because I can't cope with it on my own. I know certain people that would moan constantly if they were in my position and it isn't fair. I suffer pretty much all these symptoms everyday, and I'm not trying to say that I suffer more than anyone else here, because I know for a fact that I don't. But I need to tell people here because no one else will listen to me.
1. Extreme tiredness, especially after any sort of exercise that I can manage.
2. Difficulty sleeping, can't get to sleep, keep waking up, wake early, nightmares and sleepwalking.
3. All over aches and pains, like trying to recover from flu really.
4. Stomach aches and feeling sick.
5. Headaches, sore throats, sore glands and earaches.
6. Poor temperature control, either too hot or too cold. Unable to tolerate cold conditions.
Muscle and joint stiffness.
7. Emotional, sensitive to what other people say, can't take critisim.
There are other things aswell but I don't want to list them all as these are the mains ones. There isn't actually anything wrong with me though. Nope, my mum just says its because of my age and that I need to just get on with it. I think that she should try being me and then she might understand that it isn't normal to feel like this all the time :'(
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&*( for you icelolly, you have every right to moan if you feel this way. It certainly does not sound normal to me and hopefully you will get some answers when you do visit your dr.
Take care
S x
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That sound like M.E
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For you Icelolly &*( &*(
Don't feel guilty about moaning, it's really not a good idea to bottle things up.
I agree with Shaz, you need to visit your GP and tell them how you feel. I really hope something happens soon for you.
Love Buttercup xxx
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Thanks everyone x
I'm just a bit desperate now, every morning I wake up and I think' hopefully I will be feeling a bit better tomorrow' and I never do. I want to wake up painfree and feeling refreshed.
I know I need to get to my GP, I will next week but I am scared, all that testing really stresses me out and makes it worse :(
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I know exactly how you feel, the idea of tests really sets off my anxiety and paranoia. Try and think of it this way, that hopefully they will be able to help you feel better.
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Thanks buttercup xx
I have really sort of missed being at school this week. At least when I'm there if I need a shoulder to cry on I can go find head of house. Now I have to curl up in my room and cry on my own, I have to deal with how unwell I feel on my own as no onw at home shows me any sympathy. :'(
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For you Icelolly &*( &*( &*(
Really feel for you, having to be on your own and deal with all this. Xxx
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You have us here ice lolly.
Tests can be very frightening, I had to have a CT scan for my back problem and I was terrified, I felt such a baby. Its quite normal to be scared.
Have they tested for glandular fever? Can have these similat symptoms and can last a while.
S x
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Thanks Shaz and Buttercup xx
I know I have you all here, and I really don't know what I would do without you to be honest, its just hard when you can't have a real cuddle sometimes :'(
I was tested for glandular fever in November, that's when it became more obvious that I was unwell and the school got involved. The test came back completely normal.
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When do you go back to school?
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We can give you cyber hugs ice lolly &*( &*( &*( &*( not the same I know.
S x
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Thanks Shaz xx
I don't go back until a week tomorrow :( I haven't been able to get any rest this holiday, I just feel so stressed and worried.
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Try and make that appointment, it will get you out the house and your GP will be someone to talk too :)
I'll send some cyber hugs as well &*( &*( &*( &*(
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I agree you need to see your dr as soon as you can. She sounds very good by what you have said before. The sooner you see her the nearer you wil be to getting yourself well.
^&^ cat hugs from my boys Boris and Basil.
S x
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Wow Ice Lolly. For such a young girl you are having to go through a lot.
I havn't read your journal...sorry....but now I have read what you are going through, I will read it.
Much of your symtpoms sound consistent with depression and anxiety. However, the fact you cannot regulate your own body temperature, this sounds like it could be viral, or some other kind of infection.
I do not know your history, but it is possible that you may be suffering from an infection or another physical illness that is causing you all of these symtoms. You may have depression as well as a non-mental illness, or perhaps you have an illness causing you to de depressed.
It does sound like a good idea that you are getting all these tests done. Please do not be scared.
I think it is completly out of order that you have been banned from complaining at home. Considering what you are feeling like, it is no wonder that you have a need to expressed yourself. Keeping things bottled up is not mature at all. You are doing the right thing by getting this out in the open.
I hope you get answers soon.
Love Steve X
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Thanks everyone xx
The doctor and the counsellor think that some of my symptoms are caused by stress and low self esteem but some are definitely physical. I just wish that people at home would understand sometimes :'(
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Once you get a proper diagnosis hopefully your folks will start to ake some notice
Z xx
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Thanks Zaf x
I'm am aiming to get my Dr's appointment for next monday after school. Now I come to think of it I don't think she will run anything more than a few bloodtests perhaps, she thinks its down to stress or possibly ME.
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If she cant find anything try asking to be referred, you have so many physical symptoms and you need a diagnosis
Z xx
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Yeah I could ask to be referred, I'm not sure where I would be referred to though, I have heard that these ME specialists can tell from one appointment if someone has ME but from what my doctor was saying I don't think there is any of them around here :(
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I know it took a lot of pushing for my step mum to get a ME referral and then she didn't get a proper answer. Really hope that they get to the bottom of your symptoms soon Icelolly. xxx
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Thanks buttercup x I just don't see what else they can do for me and I have this horrible feeling that I will never get a diagnosis :(
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I'm sure you will Icelolly, you just might need to be a bit persistent with them. xxx
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I agree you have to just keep pressing about how bad you are feeling and do not get fobbed off.
S x
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I will, but it gets a bit tough when I seem to be the only one fighting this battle. My mum still insists that its to do with my age and so has no interest whatsoever. My head of house tried but there is only so much she can do :(
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Really don't understand why your mum thinks this, the way you are feeling is not normal. Just hope your dr helps you.
S x
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Thanks Shaz, I never really tell her how bad I'm feeling because she doesn't want to hear it. She probably doesn't know about half the symptoms I have.
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I wonder if it might be an idea to talk to your mum about how you are feeling, in a neutral place or over a cup of tea or something. At least you've given it your best shot then.
Xxx
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I agree with buttercup, you need to give her a chance to understand.
S x
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Yeah, it needs clearly explaining to her. It is perhaps that she doesnt want to face up to it, but perhaps a letter from a doctor would be helpful. Perhaps she isnt taking you seriously, but she needs to be made to realise that this is important.
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I agree, she needs to understand how bad you feel, at the moment she may well think that you're just being a typical teenager
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I have tried, I try to start the conversation casually, like 'mum, I'm feeling really tired, I've been feeling like that a lot lately' and then I get 'oh its just your age' or 'your too lazy' . I tell her that my back is hurting or my throat is sore and she will just say ' do you ever stop moaning' or 'have you ever not got something wrong with you?' She is never nice to me or shows me any sympathy so I just don't bother telling her anymore :'(
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Maybe rather than a casual conversation you could try to organise a situation, lunch or something. Or like Steve suggested a letter from your GP or yourself.
I know you have tried really hard and it's fustrating for you but I know that I had been miserable etc for most of my childhood and it seemed like no one cared. When I finally spied to her it was amazing all the things that came out the woodwork and how she never fully appreciated how I felt.
Buttercup xxx
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The doctor has told my mum face to face that this is not normal teenage behaviour and she still won't believe it.
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Not meaning to be nosey but does your mum have problems of her own? Maybe she doesn't know how to deal with your problems.
S x
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Similar to Shaz.
Mu mum knew I had problems, but didn't know how to deal with it, it was simpler for her to brush over them and act like she didn't care.
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I don't think she has problems I think its just that she has never done 'serious' with any of her children. She also had a mother who was about as sympathic as a brick wall so maybe she just generally doesn't know how to be sympathic.
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That is maybe why then, if she was brought up by someone who could not show sympathy, she obviously finds it hard.
S x
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I guess so, and when people try to tell her that she is not being very understanding of how bad I feel she takes it out on me :(
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&*( Your mum probably feels like she is a bad mum when others are saying things to her about you. She then takes it out on you as she see's you as the cause. Its not right to do this but it sounds like your mum is struggling to deal with this situation.
S x
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I agree with Shaz.
When I was first diagnosed my mum tried to dismiss it, she said it was just the latest thing and I didn't need to see a psychiatrist. I had to be quite firm and make her listen and really point things out to her, then she realised that yes it did explain everything. She blamed herself for a while and as Shaz said this is because she felt like a bad mum and wanted to dismiss it rather than accept the truth.
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I guess that must be why, I wish she wouldn't though. Its hard enought as it is without getting any support at home :(
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I know it must be hard for you icelolly, but you have us here to support you.
S x
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Thanks Shaz, and I will hopefully have my doctors appointment on Monday x
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I know how hard it is Icelolly when you feel so alone in the world, but we are all here for you &*( &*( &*(
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Do you have to ring on the day or can you book in advance?
S x
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You can sometimes book in advance but we always ring early and if the doctor is in we do get the appointment we want x
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Thats good, we are lucky with our surgery too, they have the same system as yours.
S x
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We have a similar system, prebookable appointments are available between 8:30 and 10.
Hope you get an appointment Icelolly.
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Thanks buttercup x
I think for us it just depends on who is on reception :) you can only have pre booked appointments at certain times aswell.
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I really hope that they can start to sort things out for you, you really shouldn't have to suffer so much &*(
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Thanks buttercup, I will no doubt get the ' you are very distressed, and I think that's why you are feeling so bad' speech that I get every time x
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Hopefully, they will have got the report back from CAMHS and realise that they need to be looking for something physical.
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I hope so x
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I hope so too Icelolly. If CAMHS are saying it's physical, your GP can't start saying it's something mental
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I guess she can't, although CAMHS do think that it is partly to do with the amount of stress I am under but there is also a physical cause x
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Should be going to the doctors on monday, really scared :( I don't know if I actually have the energy to go through with all that testing and stuff :(
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Be brave IceLolly, you eed the tests to start feeling better &*(
Z xxx
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I don't think I am ever going to get properly better, just feel that its one of those things that's going to be stuck with me for life :'(
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I hope you're wrong, take every day as it comes and cross each bridge as you get to it
Z xxx
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I will try too x
I don't remember the last time that I didn't feel tired or in pain :(
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Dont forget to tell your doctor that, you need to get the symptoms sorted
Z xx
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Try and be positive icelolly.
S x
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I do hope that things will get sorted out for you xxx
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Thanks everyone x
I have just about had with with feeling like this, so much that I just want to give up. I just want to curl up and forget but I can't because it hurts too much :'(
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&*( for you.
S x
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Thanks Shaz x
Really need some sleep, takes so long for it to come though :'(
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BACK TO SQUARE 1 AGAIN!!! >:(
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This is an awful situation for you to be in, I am so sorry ^&^.
S x x
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Thanks Shaz x
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For you Icelolly &*( I have posted on your journal.xxx
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Thanks buttercup x
Looks like its going to be another night of tears and no sleep, and it will stay that way :'(
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You could have fibromyalgia. I had all those symptoms and tests kept coming back negative. Eventually they told me I have fibromyalgia. I get ups and downs. Last year I thought I was completely better but just lately it has started getting really bad again .... and that leads to depression. The tiredness, pain and the not sleeping is really tough. I feel for you, I really do, and if I can be of any help (just a listening ear) then please do get in touch.
Dookie x
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Thanks Dookie xx
I have looked into fibromyalgia, and my symptoms are very similar. At first my doctor thought I might have ME but now she is saying its just stress. I'm hoping to see a different GP soon and get a second opinion xx