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Depression Related Forums => Depression Central => Topic started by: glasshalfempty on March 27, 2012, 06:38:54 PM
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On bad days I have to muster up the energy to take care of myself and get to work and put on a brave face with everyone. While I'm out in the big wide world I have become increasingly aware how much other people's happiness is getting right on my wick. A colleague of mine has just got engaged and she's so sickenly loved up and banging on about her wedding next year, it makes want to ram her engagement ring down her throat and tell her she's not the first and won't be the last to get a ring on her finger. I know I should be happy for her but a part of me hates the fact that those around me are plodding along in their mediocre lives and I'm struggling just to put a fake smile on my face and even say good morning to people. I know most of it is jealousy (I hate that J word) as my relationship is crumbling around me and I'll probably be single again in the next few months, something that doesn't exactly help lift my spirits.
Even the girl in the McDonalds drive-thru window passing me my coffee annoys me with her perfectly groomed hair and perfect make-up and perfect smile and telling me to have a good day. Have a good day?? If only you knew what I had to do today just to make it to my car!!
Even the presenters on the news banging on about this "wonderful" weather are annoying me when all I want to do is curl up under a duvet and be woken when it's winter again.
Am I the only one annoyed by happy people banging on about happy things and think it's so unfair when I'm so completely and utterly miserable and beating myself up over the smallest of things??
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I do not get angry with others but I find it upsetting that others are getting along well and I cant have what they have. I find that a good antidote to this is to focus on how much suffering there is in the world and to realise just how many people we know that are having problems.
Steve X
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I totally get that feeling. I wish I could give some great advice or say something helpful but I don't know what to do when life gets you down like that.
I hope things get easier
smirfy
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I admit I get jealous of perfect people who seem to have perfect lives. But then I think that no-one knows what goes on behind closed doors and if we put masks on then maybe others do too.
Steve is right, we may not have it great but there are so many people in this world that have it worse
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I know you're all right. There's far worse things in this world people are going through. I needed to let off some steam. It had been one of those days xx
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Its good you can let off steam, it often helps :)
I used to be very jealous of people that seemed to have everything, including good health, but these days I realise that it doesnt help my mental state and now I try to focus on the good things I have in life, they can be incredibly small, such as being able to hear the dawn chorus or seeing a beautiful sunrise
Z xx
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Rant away, better to say it than bottle it up.
I try not to envy others anymore, people used to envy me. During my first marriage we looked like we had everything, big house, new car and our own business. But we were in debt and had a miserable marriage. You just do not know what others go through.
S x
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When I focus on the little things, the things I used to appreciate before I became ill, I have to physically remind myself I used to like these certain things that made me smile. I used to take my appreciation for those little things for granted. It's hard work trying to remember the good days x
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I can remember that feeling well. &*( for you.
S x