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Depression Related Forums => Depression Central => Topic started by: Stew on February 25, 2012, 07:35:21 PM
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So I feel like I was dealing with my recovery quite well..
The the other night (Wednesday), I was staying round at my best pal's place, he was out on a date and i was just hanging out til he got back. Started feeling really bad, took a load of lorazepam, and slashed my wrists. Don't remember it all that well cos i'd been drinking as well. Lost maybe a couple of pints of blood and was taken to hospital. Most embarassing thing is all his flatmates were there at the time and im guessing they all read the notes that i'd left (addressed to my family, my pal, and my girlfriend). So it probably just looked like a lame 'cry for help' thing even though at the time (admittedly heavily under the influence) i fully wanted to end it.
So now i don't know how im going to face these people again. And i've probably got horrible scars on my wrists (haven't taken the bandages off yet). WHole thing's a complete mess.
And all i can think of right now is how to do a better job of it next time. fully giving up hope here
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Hi Stew,
I am so sorry you are feeling this way. We all understand depression here. Please feel free to post and we will listen and support you where we can.
Take care
S x
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There is hope Stew, I've been suicidal many times but I know there is light at the end of the tunnel and its worth the struggle to get there xx
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ouch,
sounds like a very bad night. have to say i have had a few of those myself.
I'm sure facing your friends will be fine, they were probably really worried about you.
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sounds like a bad night. get yourself sorted! why did you do it in the first place? did u have row or argument with someone?