My experience with medication

[joethfc]

No worries plumb, I was just covering all outcomes. I think it's confusing for people that I can cope so well when the pressure is on, if there's a deadline or there's a lot at stake. People just think I'm lazy or lacking motivation because I don't always operate in 5th gear. I worry people think I'm milking the depression in order to do less. I know this is silly, I just clearly use too much energy on such little things, then get depressed because I wear myself out. I see this now, all the time I spend coping is just me running myself in the ground because hard work comes with so much stress/anxiety. Also, the times when I'm not busy seem to provide me with new sources of anxiety; like the football or my future. I'm just realising that none of this is healthy.

[mrmoody]

meds are weird how they act. I was told by my psych nurse last May that there can be a period of feeling worse before feeling better and that can include intense(r) feelings of suicide. I know for me that was just unbearable and I wasnt willing to persevere. Meds affect people different, I know a friend who said Citlopram was great. I recall feeling quite paranoid the first time I took Prozac. Maybe I was more tolerant back then as in the side effects werent quite as severe

[joethfc]

It does worry me that drugs could make me feel worse but at least I have time with no obligations coming up. I also wonder about the placebo effect.

[mrmoody]

I think it has to be a factor, just swallowing a pill that we are told will make us better must have psychological impact.

[Sweetpea]

I remember taking my first anti-depressant tablet and wanting it to work the same way a pain killer does.  I was horrified when it didn't.  I had no idea it would take weeks to work  .  Once I realised, it was hard but I stuck with it.

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[Zaf]

Even though my GP warned me of the time lapse I wanted (and still sometimes want) something like a pain killer that will work quickly