came off medication for a week! straight back on it today!

[mrmoody]

a week ago I threw away my new prescription and remaining meds. I thought I could do it. Today the remaining meds that were in my system must have come out. within a hour I was sat in the doctors surgery crying. I am just not ready yet and with all the crap thats happening in my life. I never thought I would need meds, having not used them for most of my life. I got some more anyways, mitrazapine which should sedate me beautifully tonight. perhaps also I need to up them also, the dose

[Buttercup]

Don't beat yourself up.   &*( &*(

[CharleysAngel']

I'm sorry Alex, don't be too hard on yourself, lots of people need medication for their depression and its nothing to be ashamed of. I'm sure one day you may be able to reduce the meds you take or even come off them completely, but that can only happen when your are 100% ready.

Take care x

[mrmoody]

feel relieved more than anything Buttercup but I also feel weak for giving in. I was just thinking of doing myself in this weekend. Dreading this 4 day weekend. God save the Queen eh

[Zaf]

Its illness Alex, not weakness &*(

Z xx

[Buttercup]

I wouldn't feel weak for giving in, as Zaf says its an illness.  Can understand the feeling of relief though, now that I've found the right meds, I don't want to give them up, but at the same time I don't like the idea of being stuck on them.

[Sweetpea]

You are ill and you need medication, I have been told I will probably have to take them for the rest of my life.

S x x x x

[Zaf]

Me too, its just something I have had to accept

Z x

[Sweetpea]

It frightened me to start with, but I would rather keep taking them than to feel like I do without them.

S x x x x

[KateG]

Don't feel bad, although I've come off my meds, there have been many days when I have considered going back on them. This morning was just one of them &*(

[mrmoody]

I didnt mean to sound like I was calling depression or taking meds as weakness, I just felt weak giving in and taking them again. I feel alright now

[mrmoody]

I was sat in the doctors surgery crying. I just couldnt go on like this anymore

[Buttercup]

My doctor got to the point where she handed me the box of tissues when I went in 

[whiteadder]

You're not weak. coming off them, whilst possibly unwise, was very brave. It is not your fault that you have depression.

[lightenup]

I think after a while the meds have a way of lulling u into a sense of security and u wonder if u really need them at all, I kno that's how I feel and the denial to yourself that u are unwell.  Coming of Lithium dreading and looking forward to it.