I suffer with anxiety and depression and now have my 'official diagnosis' of this and am now waiting for my next course of CBT. I get anxious over a lot of things - usually work - but the biggest struggle is currently at home.
We share quite a thin wall with a loud next door neighbour who periodicially makes it unbearable with the noise levels and this leaves me anxious, upset, insomniac and frequently in tears. If it's late at night, I worry myself physically sick and quite simply don't sleep. Whenever it gets stupidly loud, we complain, she apologises and we have some peace for a little while but it will start up again. (in the past she has had screaming rows with her bloke and we've had to call the police on one occasion). We've had expensive soundproofing put in two rooms but it doesn't cancel out everything, particularly the ongoing basslines when she ups the music level.
The only problem is that I am left with this extreme anxiety, which is building daily and I am becoming utterly fixiated on it, so that EVERY sound is making me paranoid and anxious, as if I am expecting it happen. The sound obsession is starting to spread to other areas now. I cannot physically sleep without headphones, which don't help if I am stuck in anxiety like now.
They are currently in and I am stricken with panic and fear already and have being just churning bad thoughts all afternoon. It's also a ridiculous thought because even if they did kick off, there's nothing I can do about it. I'm being totally irrational and I'm so so so sick of it.
I've just finished a course of hypnosis currently with little effect so far, have gone through group therapy a year ago and CBT six months ago.
To add to the mix I CANNOT go on meds because we are trying for a baby also. I was on diazepam for panic attacks but the doctor took them off me and gave me propanolol for the attacks but said it would be a bad idea to do so because of trying to conceive. The next doctor I saw earlier this week said "you are on the waiting list for CBT and you won't stop trying for baby so no medication, therefore I cannot help you." Also, the constant stress isn't exactly helping conception either.
What else can I do? Any kind of advice would be more than gratefully received.