Hi everyone,
I've not been on here in a long time., due to the fact our wifi got cut off so didn't have a way of logging on. I've missed being able to talk about things.
I the last few months things have been very strange. I finally had my assessment for DBT, which will start in the New Year and I started bereavement councilling last week. Had my 2nd session today which was incredibly hard! I voiced things that I'd never said out loud before.
Last weekend I tried overdosing again. Things just got too much again and I didn't know where to turn. I felt hopeless and couldn't speak to anyone. After the hospital I was sent to see the Crisis Team, I felt positive that I'd be helped for a little while, but after only 3 sessions I was told "by the look of it, you're ok" I mean come on!! People who appear ok surely don't try overdosing
Again it made me lose faith in Crisis Teams. So I've been told to go back to my G.P or local A&E department if I feel like that again. It sure feels like people like us get passed from pillar to post huh?
I got in to yet another bad relationship. Started out perfectly then there were little tell tale signs that I should get out before it got too far. There was a lot of emotional abuse. I didn't realise truly what was going on until I read an article about a woman who had suffered emtional abuse and everything she spoke about I could relate to my own relationship. Luckily tonight I got out of it altogether. Changed my number so he can no longer contact me.
He constantly lied, told me things about himself, then denied saying them. I truly felt like I was on the brink of a breakdown. I didn't know what the truth was. But today I was strong enough to put an end to it once and for all.
I went to a non smoking clinic today and have my patches and inhaler so as of tomorrow I'm quitting. I'm also joining a slimming club next week which my Mum goes to. I'm trying to channel my energy in to doing positive things for myself.
It feels good to be back on here.
Once again, thanks to all of you for taking the time to read my posts.
Emma xx