Dear All,
Thank you for your kind support and uplifting advice. Your individual experiences have definitely given me a boost and the strength to keep going.
I felt really frustrated and tired today. My husband had bad days and have been in flood of tears in between him being quiet and down. I went to work yesterday and had to phoned him when I can to try and motivate him a little bit and to say that I am thinking of him. He nearly forgotten his appointment with the GP and although he's always been proud of his appearance, he's now seems to start neglecting himself.
One of my husbands biggest worry is his oldest sister, who for many years have been unhappy and had so many health problems. He went to see her yesterday, which really worries me, because I know that it is not going to do him any good. And I am not mistaken. He was even more quieter and looking so sad when he came home. I had to enroll myself to a running club. I love running and I feel that it helps me have quality time to myself. He rang me before my running club session, very upset and wanting me to collect him where he took himself for a walk.
WE just went to a car park and talk. He cried. And as per Buttercup's post, I just held him and tried to reassure him that I will be here for him.I also told him what Glen53's wife told him during his rough times, about tiring himself about worrying for others, and its now time to care for himself.
I am not moaning, I just feel a little bit drained tonight. Please tell me if I am wrong, but before I went to work this morning, I have given my husband a couple of tasks, which he did. He phoned me at work, again in tears and asked me if I could just talk to him. My husband and I works for the same employer so they are aware what we are going through. Our jobs are very demanding, however, it is one of the reasons of my husbands depression.
when I get home, he is still out. Told me he is trying to work things out his head. He came home about an hour later, by then I am so tired but had to keep my spirits up. He told me that he's been thinking a lot about me today and said that he misses me. He has not said that to me for a long time.
Its funny how just writing this post makes me feel a lot lighter.
Thank you SHAZ, HALF FULL, BUTTERCUP, GLEN53, ZAF AND PIP. Thank you all for your support. &*(
On the positive side also, after months of looking, our daughter finally found and bought her dream wedding dress! She is getting married at the end of the year!!!
Again, my heartfelt thanks to everyone,
HalfEmpty xxxxxx