Hi everyone, my names Claire. I have been having mood swings for many years. I have been on Citalapram now for a few years, and recently discussed councilling with my doctor. I have been waiting nearly 4 months to get to see a therapist for CBT
. This week has been a particularly bad one for me, its a long story, and i feel as if i may bore everyone by telling it. I consider myself a good listener and always try to be a shoulder for any one to cry on, but I feel let down when I need someone to talk to. All I get from family and friends is the usual "it'll be ok" "pull yourself together" or "its not that bad" _)(. But the problems I am dealing with are that bad in my head.
I am sobbing while I type this. I cry everynight when I go to bed, so I end up getting up and going back on the pc til early hours. I am divorced with a gorgeous 9 year old son, but i hate myself sometimes for wishing he wasn't here so I could slip away. Suicide doesn't frighten me, i find it a comfort i will never have. I do not know how much to put here, my whole story, or a basic intro? A lot of my problems are centred around men, but the effects i am left with apply to everyone around me. I am a good loving person, but i wish i could be harder and not care so much. I think I get took advantage of so much by everyone. I really need a hug right now, but i'm on my own as usual ! It is my birthday on saturday, and i am planning on spending it in bed with a bottle of wine or 4!! Anyway, thats my intro, sorry if i bore you
