worried in need of help

[petop86]

Suffering real bad I wish I had a friend or someone to talk to and help me through this dark time. I just feel like screaming at the top of my voice until every last breath of air has escaped my useless body.

[Sweetpea]

Oh huge big  for you.  I know you don't think it now, but things will get better.  We are here for you.

S x x x x

[Pip]

I've, had  days like that as well and it's a good thing our rottie is a lazy animal and our lurcher x is ok as long as we don't make a habit of it.

[petop86]

I have a Labrador cross he is lovely he is a rescue dog I found him at a place I used to work and he had his legs tied up so I checked to see if he had been tagged and he hadn't so I kept him he had tar all over his fur he was scared to eat out of a bowl so I fed him by hand until he learnt. He is my best friend and he never judges me and he never lets me down like so many people in the past have. I've had him 6 years now I can remember when I first found him he would lie on his back for hours and wriggle across the floor whilst we listened to music. He's getting old now though he struggles to walk anywhere most of the time he sprawls across the bed until someone knocks the door then he sprints downstairs barking lol.

[Michael Frankum]

Hello again Terry. I'm sorry that the world seems such a dark place at the moment. Things can and will improve. (That's what I try to tell myself too.) Animals are great friends, and your dancing partner sounds like fun. I hope that Monday's visit to the Dr gives you some reassurance. Take it easy. Michael.

[petop86]

Hi I've just got back from the doctors it's not good news I told him everything I have been going through and told him about the possible driving job and he refused to give me meds because he said he cannot be sure how my body will react to the meds and he said it's not a good idea if I'm away from home driving he told me my health should come first before any job but I told him I really need work. He said I need therapy sessions to which I agreed but he said the waiting list may be long but that I will be contacted about the sessions. He said that he thinks I suffer with manic depression but he said he can't be sure and wants me to get a better diagnosis from a specialist. I am disappointed about it and I don't know a lot about manic depression is it something to be worried about as to give up a possible job for the sake of my health the doctor said he was worried. I don't know what to say I feel a little confused  ??? 

[Sweetpea]

I am so sorry you did not get on well at your appointment with your dr.  Is he referring you to a phych dr to confirm his idea that you are suffering with Manic depression?

I am afraid I do not know much about this type of depression but I am sure someone here will be able to advise you.

Please take care

S x x x x

[stewart]

Hi Petop, i can understand your confusion, there are many sites on the net to help you get a better idea, one such site is here
http://psychcentral.com/lib/2009/whats-the-difference-between-depression-and-manic-depression/

as for the job prospect, i can understand your desire to get a job, but your doc is right in saying you have to look after your health.

[Catbrian]

Terry, I totally understand your concern.  However, your Doctor's reaction is the sort I would expect from a good GP.  A good GP won't just hand out meds but get you an assessment with professionals who deal in mental health.  They are better placed to know exactly what type of meds you need.  Manic depression is similar to mine, I am Bipolar.  It's manic depression.  They are much the same.  If a GP gives you antidepressants, it could cause you to become hypo-manic and do you a lot more harm than good.

This is all frightening to you because it is the fear of the unknown.  Please try not to worry too much.  The GP is a good one and I would stick with his suggestions.  It always takes time to get an assessment with mental health, but it is well worth the wait.  If you are really struggling to cope, don't hesitate to go back to him and he might prescribe you Diazepam (Valium) to help calm you down.

The work is a tricky one, I'm not sure what to suggest

[petop86]

Hi cat yeah the doctor is really good he asked me loads of questions and when I finished answering he said that I was sick and that I am like anybody else who is unwell he was happy that I had told him everything and said that he was certain it was manic depression or bipolar as you put it the strange thing is it was like he was reading my mind when asking me questions every single question he asked me was correct. Even down to the uncontrollable spending and gambling and doing outrageous stuff I decided to just up and leave the country when I was 22 and live in france that lasted about 2 months.the only thing is I feel down a lot more than I do up  I would say my depressive episodes last about 1-2 months but the hyper episodes maybe 1-2 weeks is that normal.I know this mite seem insane but I have decided to give it 12 months and if I still feel the same after going through all this to make myself better I think it's best to end it.

[Pip]

I don't understand how anybody can be cruel to animals, my ones are my world.  Back in 2009 a lad who worked in a shop about two minutes from our home found two starving kittens in a box in an alleyway.  As he had two cats he took them home to see if they would accept the kittens.  They didn't so a friend of his took the older of the two which was about 6 months and we took the other one which was about 3 or 4 weeks old.  For the first four days he was eating well but on day 5 he had really bad diarrhea so took him to the vets who gave him an injection and suggested a change of diet until he put weight on.  Sadly he died about 10 pm and it broke my heart.  At least we made his last few days comfortable and he knew he was loved.

It's good that your doctor listened to you and whilst it may feel frustrating in some respects it is better to get your diagnosis right.     

[petop86]

I'm sorry to hear that pip it's incredible how people can treat animals so bad. I have never had cats but I do remember when I left the car window open when it was a hot day got in the car to work about 10 miles down the road I saw the neighbours cat curled up in a ball on the back seat fast asleep lol I had to turn round and go back home to drop him off. cathug

[Pip]

Oh yes cats will make themselves comfortable anywhere.  Our first cat used to get in our car sometimes when we went out and lie on the dashboard.  Our dog would get on the boot shelf and it would make us laugh with people's expressions.  A few times people would ask if it was a real cat then he would move to be nosy.

The most cats we've had are four and the most dogs we've had has also been four.  Over the years we have also 'adopted' three guinea pigs, had a hamster, goldfish, tiger finches, budgies and canaries.  We are now down to two budgies, two dogs ~ a rottweiler who thinks she is a lap dog and a 'confused' lurcher border collie cross ~ and a cat.  The lurcher x would copy the cats by jumping on the back of my chair, he would sleep on my pillows because the cats did and would try to get on the kitchen sides because the cats did.  Mind you every dog we've had has ended up with the cat flap round their necks when they've got to that size of getting too big to go through it. 

[blue lady]

Hi Terry im sorry to hear you are having such a rough time, but i am new to this site and i do find it very helpful and surportive, I would like to recomend a book to youj to read it has helped me so much during my depression,and even if you think you wont beable to read it, you will in fact its almost like you have written it yourself!
Its called Self Help For Your Nerves By Dr Mary Weeks. please try to find a copy you wont believe how much help that book can give you!!
All the best to you, you are not alone .
Blue Lady

[petop86]

Hi blue lady I will definitely give that book a try I do read a lot so it may help I looked online for it but only saw a book by Dr Claire weeks the book had the same title is that the right book. Thanks for your help. Terry.