stuck in that downward spiral

[misunderstood-x]

someone asks how you are and i say im fine, someone walks by and i smile, but behind closed doors im in bed 24/7 not wanting to talk to anyone, ignoring peoples phone calls, texts, facebook messages etc. i hate leaving the house, hate going to my GP (and if they ask how im getting on i say the medication is working well and im doing good)i cant think straight, i dont even know how im suppose to feel anymore. i just want it all to end, all this rubbish, i just want to feel normal.

self harm urges are getting stronger, just staring at the scars isnt enough anymore.
i cant sleep, i cant talk to anyone. i cant talk to family, friends, GP

i dont even know why im typing this to be honest, not like there is anything anyone can do.

[Zaf]

I know the feeling of putting a front on all too well and I'd guess a lot of other people do too

Z xxx

[Sweetpea]

Hopefully by typing it, it has helped a bit.  You are not on your own.  I to put on a face and say 'i'm fine', its hard work pretending.

We are here to listen.

S x x