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Sleeping my life away....
« on: September 09, 2013, 01:55:56 AM »
Just need to vent n scream, once again I have spent all day in bed sleeping, only getting up at 8.30pm, now I'm wide awake but need to go back to bed as have work in the morning!!!! I get 3 days off a week at the minute & end up sleeping most of them away & it's really beginning to annoy me that I'm sleeping y life away, nothing that needs doing is getting done!!!! I've just been told I have a vitamin B12 defiency so this could be what is making me so lethargic & tired, I thought it was just me depression but maybe it's a combination of both.  I have to have a course of 6 B12 injections, 1 every other day then 1 every 3 months for the rest of my life, I'm hoping they will help with my tiredness & in turn mean I can actually get out of bed & do stuff which should help my depression!!!! I'm back on diazapam along with my anti depressants due to having a crisis the other week & I finally have an appt on Tuesday with the mental health team so I'm hoping they can give me help & guidance to help me deal with my depression as it's completely taking over my life!!!!

Rant over......thanks for letting me vent :-) x

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Re: Sleeping my life away....
« Reply #1 on: September 09, 2013, 11:49:43 AM »
hiya Cat good to see your still posting!

it sounds like you have a combination of things keeping you in bed with the vitamin deficiency and the diazepam and depression on top... easier said than done but try to bring those things into account and not beat yourself up too much... its a shame sometimes that no matter how enthusiastic or willing you are to change fact of the matter is we have to try to be patient as the right care is set up for us, the right meds prescribed, the right therapist, the right gp, the right support....

its a journey and im sorry it seems so hard and bleak right now but your doing all within your power right now... don't be too hard on yourself, in time with the injections and medication your energy levels will come back!!!

thinking of you xxx
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« Reply #2 on: September 09, 2013, 03:51:20 PM »
Thanks for your reply Craig, I guess I do beat myself about it all a bit too much at times, I just hate feeling like I'm literally sleeping my life away but I guess with all that's going on & the medication that it all contributes to how I'm feeling or being.  Your words make a lot of sense :-)

How are you doing yourself? I know you've been through a pretty rough patch, I hope you feel that you are coming out the 'other side' so to speak & that you are getting the help & support you need?

I'm meant to be going to London for the weekend with the oh & a group of people from the TA, I'm still not 100% I'm going to go, I really want to as I've not done anything socially in a long time but at the same time I'm really anxious about it all.  Not really sure why as I know the people who are going & as I hate travelling on a mini bus or coach we are travelling down in the car so we can leave I guess if my anxiety gets too much..........we will see whether I actually make it or not lol!!!

Only worked a part day today, finished work, popped to buy myself a top for the weekend, fetched a hair dye, went & had my B12 injection number 2, popped to the post office & then eventually made it home to return a few important phone calls.  Tomorrow I see the mental health nurse for an assessment so I'm hoping that goes okay.

How has your day been? Have you kept yourself busy? Are you sleeping any better or not? We should trade places, I sleep too much & you don't get enough sleep :-) xx

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Re: Sleeping my life away....
« Reply #3 on: September 09, 2013, 03:55:09 PM »
Sorry Craig, I didn't now hot to accept your buddy request & think I deleted it by mistake so I have asked you to be my buddy so hopefully you know how to accept lol!! I didn't even know there was buddy thing on here so will have to have a scout round later n see what it's all about x

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« Reply #4 on: September 09, 2013, 04:38:06 PM »
no problem I'll accept after ive replied...

I think one of the best ways to deal with anxiety if you ca manage it is to tell yourself to feel the fear and do it anyway! you may do as I do and realise its not as bad as you first thought and actually enjoy your day :) sounds like you  have an exit strategy so I think you should go for it!

im doing marginally better, im in this alone apart from support here so its hard to keep myself up, things can change at the flik of a switch with me so im just trying to manage right now. things will become clearer with my next steps to get better in a few days.
i'll update with good or bad news as it comes in...

hope your appointment goes well tomorrow, don't hide anything from them not even how nervous you are they are there to help with what they can and the more they know the better support and treatment they can give !!

will be thinking of you xx
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« Reply #5 on: September 11, 2013, 11:28:26 PM »
Sounds like good advice & like you say I do have an exit strategy should things get too much.

Glad to hear you are doing marginally better, I'm sorry to hear you have no support except from on here, a bit like me I guess, I get a little support from a few fb friends who live many miles away so it's not like I actually see them or socialise with them.  My mom is pretty supportive but I don't tell her everything as she has enough health worries of her own, my dad doesn't 'get depression' he just says 'f*** them all if they get you down', I don't talk much to my brother & my sister has no comprehension of depression or the effect it has on a person & their life, she thinks everyone should just get on with things regardless & that's about all the family support lol!!!

My appt with the mental health nurse went really well, he was really nice, made me feel at ease or as much at ease as I could be as I get anxious in those kind of situations, he was very thorough & really listened to my answers to his questions & really listened to what I was actually saying.  I'm now going to be referred & my case will be discussed at the weekly meeting with the comm mental health nurses, drs, social workers & so on who attend these things.  The nurse I spoke to wants to take my case on & for him to be my case worker, his opinion is that no-one has ever looked at the root cause of my depression & all that's happened is that I have been given anti depressants.  He suggests a change of medication for one thing as the citalopram don't seem to be doing what they should do & some counselling & discussing of coping strategies.  It all sounds very positive so I just hope the others who make the decision agree with him & I'm allowed to go on his case load.

Work are being a pain & have decided after 8 months that they are going to refer me to occupational health.  I had a telephone referral with them today where they asked a lot of questions, I've now been emailed a copy of that report to see & agree or disagree with before I give my consent for it to be passed onto hr at work.  The occ health nurse reckons that I won't be able to return to full time hours in the foreseeable future, hr are saying to me they cannot have a manager on 25 hours yet it's been ok for me to do that job for the last 8 months!!!!! I've no idea what will happen next, we will see, if I lose my job I will deffo go stir crazy as the days I work are the only days I manage to get out of bed & lead any sort of normal life.

How have you been today Craig? Are you sleeping any better now or are things about the same? What sort of things do you do/use as coping strategies when things get really bad?

Hoping you are improving as each day goes by xx

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Re: Sleeping my life away....
« Reply #6 on: September 12, 2013, 02:18:29 AM »
so happy you have support and real help with your health team :) ive never had that, im all self taught tbh learnt the bloody hard way lol

im living in limbo at the moment... not sure if things are going to happen to help me out in a big way or not... the big way is financial stability and a career ... good life and a way out of this mess ... I say mess. its not anymore because I understand exactly what brings me down and what I need to do to change it... as soon as I see the money ill believe it but until then its all what if it does, or doesn't..

I hope you get a lot from being on this site I know I have, and met some amazing people in the process :)
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Re: Sleeping my life away....
« Reply #7 on: September 12, 2013, 02:56:49 PM »
Sorry for not responding to your thread.  Had a really dark day Monday and am slowly feeling better.

It's awful sleeping so much and I've been through the same years ago.  It seemed that my world evolved round work and sleeping.  I'm glad you're been supported via the mental health team.

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« Reply #8 on: September 12, 2013, 06:26:30 PM »
This thread really strikes a chord with me and I was going to post something similar myself. I have recently returned from a two week stint working away from home when I am basically working around the clock. I typically finish at midnight and am up again at 7.00 - 7.30. But sometimes it takes me a couple of hours before I can get to sleep (you know all the thoughts that go through your head).

Since being back I have done almost nothing but sleep. I woke at 1.30 PM having gone to bed at about 10.30 the previous evening. I woke several times but soon went back to sleep. I felt there was nothing worth getting up for, even though I had many important matters to attend to. I was enjoying the sleep too much.

I really felt I should have got up and now I am beating myself up about it. I know how structure is really important to people who have depression and at the moment I am really struggling to organise myself. I am all out of kilter now and am going to struggle to keep myself awake during the day tomorrow.

Does anybody else experience this problem? Even when I have had plenty of sleep I still feel tired. In fact the longer I sleep the more I seem to have a "sleep hangover".

Of all the horrible symptoms associated with depression the feeling of tiredness and having zero energy is by far the most debilitating of all of them.

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« Reply #9 on: September 17, 2013, 11:05:10 PM »
I suffer with extreme tiredness & lack of energy due to a variety of things, my depression, my medication, vit b12 deficiency, I can sleep for 48 hours solid when I've no work, not eating or drinking & only waking to take my medication.  I do hate it & beat myself up about badly as I feel I am totally wasting my life by sleeping it away.  It's hard but my cmhn who is now in charge of my case has told me not to keep beating myself up about it, to accept that I have clinical depression & that this is an illness & for now that is how it is.  He says we will work together & it will get better but it will take time & mean learning new coping strategies & having more understanding of the root causes of my depression & also a change of medication.

I've only had 2 sessions with him so far but am trying to take on board what he is saying to me.

It's hard feeling the need to sleep so much so I can sympathise with you, hope things improve for you.

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Re: Sleeping my life away....
« Reply #10 on: November 28, 2013, 02:59:13 PM »
hi all

Since i lost my job 6 months or so ago , i can't seem to get up early and oversleep til late mornings.  I have no motivation, or reason to.. so i don't.
I need a new job as home is becoming like a prison i cant get away from.  Not to mention the rather dark thoughts that have been going through my
head of late . I dont really know what to do about it.  I just dont leave the house if i have no real reason to do so.  And winter is not far away...

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« Reply #11 on: November 28, 2013, 05:33:35 PM »
It is easy to get in to that cycle.  I know I have over the years to the point of being on the verge of being agoraphobic which hasn't been helped by anxiety attacks in busy places such as supermarkets.  Before we moved a couple of months ago I was fortunate that I was quite involved with our (Methodist) church as it has regular activities.  Life went quietish when we moved but I still volunteer for the Friday lunch club at that church and now I'm helping at our local church with the Thursday lunch club ~ they have a Tuesday lunch club.  They are gradually involving us more.  The good thing about what we do is there isn't any pressure to do anything and they appreciate what help they do get.     

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« Reply #12 on: November 28, 2013, 06:57:17 PM »
hi pip

Yeah its very easy indeed to get into that cycle. the agoraphobia , and the anxiety attacks you mention is what i have felt too. In busy social situations where i feel very uncomfortable... having to drive back home from somewhere im not 100 percent familiar , and so on.. all bring on that anxiety.  i have been on cipralex for what seems like forever, and have been getting prescriptions free on contribution based jsa.  it ran out ....  all i get now is a class1 NI contribution which is utterly farcical.  i dont qualify i think for income based.   So as you can see things are not great right now.

I am doing a course with the OU but its tough going and time consuming.   i am 42 so i am of course wondering (in my state of mind , at present) whether it is actually worth my while.  Just tired of the endless going round in circles and never going anywhere if that makes any sense..

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« Reply #13 on: December 14, 2013, 06:55:11 PM »
Hi everyone, had to post on here because it struck a chord with me too, so sorry you are all suffering, I'd like to give you all a big hug, I posted the other day was feeling suicidal and the support was amazing it helped get me through a tough few days, I don't feel suicidal anymore but am still low.  I relate too so much to sleeping life away.  I work as a cleaner for domestic properties and I also have fibromyalgia (mostly under control) and after my shifts I usually can't stay up until evening and end up sleeping, but I can never seem to get more than a few hours and I am wide awake again, then I get tired again and it's a vicious circle, I always feel tired and sleep much more than I 'should'.  Wish you all well and hope things get easier for us all.