Hi,
I dont know if anyone can help but ive been feeing depressed for such a long time now its becoming part of my life.
It started when i was a teeneager i guess, i was bullied at school and pretty much kept myself to myself, i was always feeling low and depressed but managed to get through it.
As i got older i always had a nagging feeling of depression and even when i was happy there was always something to make me feel down. now im 36 years old and the feeling just seems to get worse and worse for me. I feel silly feeling the way i do as i have nothing to worry about really.I have a descent job, although i hate it. im married to a fantastic wife and dont really want for anything. But i always feel depressed,i dont really feel i can go on as life seems so meaningless for me.
I cry alot when im alone and have come to the point were i dont like to be on my own. even when im doing the things i enjoy the depression is always there at the back of my mind.
I havent been to a doctor although i have talked to my wife about it. Its a strange feeling as i always feel low and down. and have done for many years.
only today i realised i talk to myself quite alot when im alone.
I dont know if i suffer from "depression" I always think its just me and thats the way i am.