Hi
Just found this forum and hopefully will be able to chat to people that also feel like me. Im 38 yrs old, married, with 6yr old son. I suppose ive suffered with depression on and off for a number of years but never felt quite as bad as i feel now. I put off going to the docs for a couple of months and then realised when i was at work one day that i was becoming so intolerant of other people for no reason and not been able to function on my job properly that i decided to take the plunge and go and see the doc.
He was really good and firstly signed me off work for 2 weeks, i am back there tomorrow as he gave me some info to read on antidepressants before he gave me some, which hopefully will be tomorrow. Im also booked in for some counselling but that is not until 22nd april.
Every so often when i feel okay i think ' oh im okay, im not depressed, this isnt happening to me' i can pull myself round etc..... but then i flip again, crying for no reason, no motivation, panicky, dont want to be with anyone because they wind me up, it scares me so much because i cant control it.... and im always reasonably in control.
I read this forums and think im being selfish because there are people on here who have or have considered suicide and that is something i have never ever though of
i guess its my 6 yeart old that gets me through this.
husband has just switched off,and generally thinks im just in a bad mood, which doesnt help me one bit, just a cuddle might help a little
this is my 3 rd day off sickand im feeling worse each. day.
