Hi, back again and things aren't any better!, Zaf, no his depression is the same all year round. I did buy him a 'light box' a couple of years back, didn't seem to help - sometimes it seems as if he doesn't want to get well, although I know that this isn't the case. He seemed quite positive a few weeks back, looking forward to the start of the new year and spring - we always seem to get decent weather in spring. Last night he took himself off to bed at around 6:30pm, (try explaining that to your kids!) I was still up (worrying) at 11:45, he came downstairs, hardly spoke (unless I spoke to him) and eventually came back upstairs at around 1pm. This morning theres no change, he got up without waking me, went downstairs, made himself a drink and watched tv til me and my daughter got up, then he went back to bed! I have loads of patience, but to be honest all this is making me ill, I feel everything I try to do is thrown back in my face (which has a permanent smile painted on it!) I am a very positive person and even though I have had bad times myself, I try not to let it affect others, maybe thats why I find it hard to deal with. Hubby loves me, I know that and believe me, when he is having good days he is wonderful, I always get a cup of tea in bed before I have to get up, he helps me with the housework (he is retired by the way), we have days out, life should be great, but its not. Still, I know there are people out there suffering more than us, I just love the fact that I can come on here and get some of my frustration out. See you