definitely Cat, I know this post is old but I have been questioning and learning the why's and whens of the reasons for my depression since I was diagnosed and it all leads to relationships with people that were not and are not productive in recovering from this illness for me.
If your surrounded by SH*T you feel like sh*t, may that be a messy room, or a body you clean because you don't feel worth it, or people that put you down or negate your positive outlook, a job that you don't enjoy or get fulfilment from or thoughts that make you feel like sh*t yourself ... they all play a part...
I feel I am taking the right steps to recover and only last week had an OD so this may be short lived but for me, RIGHT NOW, I believe that a lot of things need to change that are negative in my life, from people, career, living circumstances, family members or so called friends who bring you down...
I haven't accepted a lot of what has made me bitter but.... I wouldn't rule out that I could!