Hi everyone,
My name is Sandy, I am 34 years old! I have struggled with depression since a child!
My dad abused me in a way that a dad should not! My mum would hit me! I was in a 14 year abusive marriage! I am now free of that for 5 years! He nearly killed me! But i am here to tell the story! Thanks to good friends!
I have battled with self doubt. worthless, feeling dread! I have self harmed and on a couple occasions tried to take my own life! I was put onto anti depressants but none have worked at all!
I have type 2 diabeties, I have also got NEAD(non eperleptic associated disorder) I have seizures because my brain can't cope!
I have this last year been told that i am losing my eyesight! Hopefully not fully!
I am so depressed right now! I have a great boyfriend! But i am feel that the world is on my shoulders and that life is hard work! I break into tears for the most smallest thing! It is silly but i feel so alone!
We recently got two pups! 1 standard poodle and Bichon frise! I love them to bits! But i still feel alone!
I used to self harm regular! With the stress of christmas i nearly started again! I went to my local self help group! But it did not help they were just going on about their link to alchol or drugs! I don't like to be in a big group!
I feel stupid everytime i open my mouth!
Sorry to go on!
Sandy
