I've had depression for the last 4-5 years and I'm just shy of 19. I've harmed myself all this time too, quite badly. At this age it seems particularly hard to find support. I really need a friend who listens but whenever I try talking to people (and I mean good friends) about my feelings, all I get is judged and laughed at, told to "stop being pathetic". A few weeks ago I felt so low I attempted suicide. Before I did it I called my best friend (and very recent ex, who I broke up with because he cheated on me with a completely fake girl. And I don't even wear makeup...) because I felt like I needed someone to stop me doing it. See I don't want to die, I just don't want to live. Anyway, he said he'd finish cooking his dinner and call me back. I waited an hour. I started taking pills, but after just three my mum caught me red handed. So here I am.
I'm lucky to have a mum who is so supportive, I wouldn't be here without her there is no doubt about it. But I am so sick of people not taking me seriously. I hope that this forum can show me that there are genuine and supportive people in the world who know what I'm going through.
Laura xx